Forgiveness

Jesus commanded us to forgive many times, He told Peter to forgive the erring brother not just seven times but seventy times seven times. Forgiveness is very difficult to give, we just though we forgave but when the same problem arises, we become bitter. We can only know that we have forgiven if we disregard the past mistakes they've done.
Emperor Julian was named as the Apostate for he hated God and Christians. It was more difficult for him to forgive the sons of his guardians for murdering his family because of possible rivalry to the throne. The anger started towards the specific people who killed, then developed to the Christians for the murderers claimed to be Christians, then to God whom the Christians believed in.
The same is true to us. When we choose not to forgive, it will just grow bigger and it imprisons us, making us do foolish things because of our raging anger. I really thought that I was able to forgive easily in the past but i was just actually denying my anger and pain. That made me apathetic, like everything is neutral, I did not know what's the happiest and saddest time of my life was until I attended the counselling class. Forgiveness really is not just saying you forgive them but putting it in action, do good to them in spite the hurtful words or things they did. I chose that, I chose to be kind to the person who hurt me through her words and actions. I chose to love her though I get disappointed and feel down and upset.